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1 boxed   sheep yeah well fuck you [08 Jul 2007|12:19pm] [ mood | fuck you mood ] [ music | the sound of my skin drying out ] yeha well fuck stuck again alone again well fuck what to do i can think a few times of day were the night is gray me and emptyness chill as i burn to die even more now as i sit to lie lay to be the one i can see is no longe mine $$ well fuck $$ i dont know who odes i cant show what i really feel i cant explain how hard to detain my feelings of vengance and crulety of my own stupid and dumb inpateience yeah well i fucked up but what about you or is it really just about me like the world alwasy tells it to be? if i had a gun id have more than one hole to explain. and let me tell you one thing i wouldnt be explaining it to you fuck you. all 2004bc

sheep i got this junk [10 May 2007|09:53am] [ mood | dirty ] [ music | NONE! girr ] i got this junk it sits and stares eyes never close and i am bare, embaressing i kno! but theres nothing i can do but sit here and be blue. i got this junk.. it has soo many teeth cruel and so sharp to bite its way beneeth this flesh so raw and it has my soul to naw im tied to it this junk i have like a dark sad day the sun wont come out the sun wont come out i have this junk it is tied with a chian to my heart that has so much pain. if i could run away i would but i have all this junk and a wonderful dane. all this junk hurts my head it makes me sad it keeps me in bed the darkness will always stand strong and these sorrow birds do not fly away these eggs they left in the cavaty of my chest will bogg me and dog me to the bluest depths of myself that i do not know and it hurts to move because of were i am junk is hurtful and it brings us down it never floats it never flys all it does is hide hide hide one day ill win one day i can beat it, that junk over there. but till then it just sits sits and stares xxxx xxxx x00x x00x xxxx xxxx x x x x xx xx xx xx x x xx x x xx x x x x x xx x x xx xx xx xx xx

sheep boo hoo [19 Apr 2007|07:00pm] [ mood | confused ] [ music | your voice in my head ] boo hoo i guess. im so lost right now, i hope this is for not good and not long either. broken up is not okay. i love i love i love...what do i do. to get my love back .... i dont think tears help so we wont do that...i love i love my love come back.

sheep love [31 Mar 2007|03:36pm] [ mood | hmm doody ] [ music | odd ] alot on my mind... there is more than everything it is so much just watching shows made me think about dads or family i really hpe i work i really hope i can be good. patobot?[][][[][[]]][][]

sheep at school [30 Mar 2007|09:42am] [ mood | poopy ] [ music | none ] im at school my shorts are short and im going to go look at threadless.com

1 boxed   sheep alone [24 Mar 2007|09:49pm] [ mood | lonely ] [ music | computer buzz ] poops she getting the shark done im all lonly and shit.. poop patobot

1 boxed   sheep still confused [23 Mar 2007|11:13pm] [ mood | confused ] [ music | sadly ] i was going to just say confused but im sure ive said that before i sit in darkness so often and i feel out of place i am not fit i wonder where i should be but then again is it there few feet away? but truthfully were i feel like i belong is a mile away but it seems so much farther the darkness is a wall between me and _________ sometiems i feelike my hands arnt reall maybe a claw froma crab or a paw like a cat or dog truthfuly an agel an deamon to close was hard with my mind all astir with my claws petting the metalic utters to clean them with the sea animal all dead and nothing but the juices from the smashed offspring of the great monster that allows our breath. worries stray from side to side my mind a maze with an idea trying to seep through a crack that is no longer there forever is hear i felt it at three teeth stared at my face a curve that could petrify you as stone in the sun hot and solid. but it was still there the travels of the night was nothing with a nothing nothing and nothing if there was a map and nothing more i would have one line to draw of were we were or went or to go but if it was greece or seatle paris or africa i wouldnt want it alone a strangle of everything a saw to build this up and a hammer to break my toe if i could win a prize i would give it away i can see myself next to a girl i can see this thing going in a twirl to myself and her with nothing but true lies are not real lets make it a joke dont let it happen open to me open the box and show me whats inside it seems hard for this to not have you tell me but watch you speak all of it maybe it cause you just want happy with me maybe it cause you affraid what might happen if i knew everything?or maybe i already do blak and white is right now but how if it was differnt angels fly so high to dive under water to wait to emerge again as if the night scky wasnt enough to allow evverything to be aluminated as if to rip it all out of my mouth and leave my beleding carcus on the floor of my bile filled stomach the acid eating myself away from the inside. waht is ths that crushes my soul as if to impload upon the outside world but what what what is it that makes thus time bomb tick with in waiting to win agains t this slow rotting flesh that only awaits to feed the maggots of the ground how is it that we are all differnt as if we are ha but no no no it is the same we all are the same death will bring us to the same. as if a blueberry is any differnt other than anything else besides a trench with a gun waiting for me to take hold look into a mans eyes and say " if you wanted to see me you must first look yourself ..." and it would be odd to show some one themselfs from the toe up but with the blood to cover it all up if i painted the wall like it said what would it tell me after that. will the matrix go away or will another joke be told to taer my tounge out with the teeth and heart and soul s of the 10000 other zeros to live and die or live again but witch ever way it is i love some one more than anything and i cant help but wish i could be better for them i will go before it is said i will go before i say i will go before i i will go before i will go i will i i love i love you i love you so i love you so much i love you so much more i love you so much more than i love you so much more than you i love you so much more than you know i is always there thats the hard part.' patobot out.

1 boxed   sheep mess up [17 Mar 2007|11:21am] im a mess up like no other my eyes have pounds and pounds of _________ _____ i am a mess up

sheep again [30 Jan 2007|09:30am] [ mood | tired ] [ music | at the drive in ] your at home and im at school. i miss ya. so i will come say hello and we can laugh and jump and dance and joy cause love, well love is just that good. i love you i love you

sheep dos [26 Jan 2007|09:37am] [ mood | lovesy ] [ music | my heart pounding your name ] your at home and im at school. i miss ya. so i will come say hello and we can laugh and jump and dance and joy cause love, well love is just that good. i love you

sheep its the time of year [24 Jan 2007|09:14am] [ mood | emptyish ] [ music | bush ] its the time of year its the time of year for feeling lame you know like hallow inside. lame you know Weak and ineffectual; unsatisfactory crippled you know its just around that time to have nothing and be crippled well thats good for the time of year its the time of year for drowning you know like dying by water just swallow the water and fill your lungs with poison so you can dye cause thats good for the time of the year its the time of year its the time of year for school its like failing so if you cant read and you just bad could you even tell me a number? if your not doing well well thats good for the time of year its the time of year not fitting in you know like a big box or old close its like if you were the only one being red they all like tea but your drinkin the bed well thats good for the time of year its the time of year failing you know like all your classes if every thing you tried to say was wrong all your plans just failed and everything you did was dead it be like shooting for the moon and landing on your roof the rocket you built was not good enough you failed well thats good for the time of the year its the time of year for tears you know like water drops falling down you know like little cuts in your favorite jeans its a mess mess mess your face swollen puffy and stale to much work to hide so you know if you tear well at least thats good for the time of the year

sheep [16 Dec 2006|09:53am] how i am in love. its cool

2 boxed   sheep better than a dream [02 Nov 2006|08:49am] [ mood | worried about failing school ] [ music | stars ] to get off the phone from a conversation about how there would be no talking for a week, for a week. no anything for a week then we would see what was up. from that to talking about it all with some one else and how hopeless love is and how hard everything is. to seeing u pull up and think ud be upset about me not going to work or about this or that, and worried what i was guna say and thinking about why you even came down...i didnt think you had time. and then, and then ... and then you took me in your arms and told me, "i want to be with you". the words i have been waiting for. it was so good. when i argued about you were acting on spur of the moment feelings, you argued back and told me "this is real why was i waiting, I know what i want, and i want to be with you." i couldnt be happyer, well i could but with this i cant and you help me with school and just push eachother we will and thats why it will work thats why it is good. love is good, just sometimes it is rough...but still good

sheep febuary 8 2004 [22 Oct 2006|01:28pm] [ mood | regretful ] close my mouth let me sleep my eyes soon will shut i cry to the lord the misery and pain let it subside cant we just die why must we stay let me sleep the morning comes tonight and tomorrow i will sleep the wall that stands before me is tall cant we cut it down chop it up slice tear flesh that bleeds you can hear the tear in utttering silence words is the secret lies cant we speak out cant we walk alone and not get hurt? i sleep by your side hugging what ever i can let me fall slip away fall jump fall catch dont let me go to far we all look up at the same stars cant we all be in one can i not look upon a face with only love and care must we hate those little things nothings somethings few things and again nothing- will pass into this world cant i just stay out in orbit out side on top of this house a house people run from a house we all ruin can i not just walk for miles kilometers meters feet- that can only be a memorie of love a poem for once and never again we pray can i not swim in a hearts warm pools can i feel loved both ways she says cant we sit together? 500 wishes i will make some day god will rest his hand upon my soul and in this moment i will be complete pray hard and you will live pray soft and you can hear pray a lot and you can tell him your problems pray a little and sleep till dawn pray enough and it will be done pray and it is enough pray and i will love you dont pray and i will love you the same love and care hate and discomfort emotions flow from nothing why cant everything flow why can i see the death why do isee what is real can i close my eyes? for i do and they wake me the eye lid ripped apart\ my mind cannot see through a wall nightmares can bring me joy? then what dreams make me cry? for the names have changed and nothing is right i can no longer be long to anything that is real time that is counted like sheep to sleep memories to fall like a duck shot from nothing but the hunters snout a mouth that wsipers like a snap of a wip can i not just sleep sleep once more no tearing flesh to dream of that night no sounds to think about to rember next time next time it will be for sure forever and now i hope to sleep go to sleep my friend worry no more i am leaving soon conceeded and strong but not enough to hold my slef tonight i do fall fall tonight and tomorrow to be gone

sheep tnte [21 Oct 2006|04:24am] i avoided all i could so to be good avoid the valley stay away from peaks but it seems hardly to work for it leaks out of you mouth to remind me of the past what i wanted what i never got what i was always missing when you live by touch it is hard to be good when you are down there are things that bring you up if it hurts then it FEELS as if you just got hit by 18 wheels it is hard but your here i can see your eyes but i can also try try try to feel your soul i avoid it all i could so to be good avoid the valley stay away from peaks but it seems hardly to work for it leaks out of you mouth and you egg me on with your heart beating strong im no long er falling apart i feel it pound i see you move ear to the sound and i can only shove these emotions for a day ' before they breakaway run run run i feel you now as i run my finger down i feel you shiver i see ur breath chest rise pulse quikens circle circle circle i hear you now dive to the waist i can see a curve i know its true and i will fallow a rule under this cover i will be nice and now i know what can i do to make myself out to be no fool a fool rushes in i cant but offer a truce. for i am sorry i live by touch but i avoid it all all i could so to be good avoid the valley stay away from peaks but it seems hardly to work for it leaks out of you mouth and you egg me on with your heart beating strong i can _________ _________ - - -

sheep what a day [16 Oct 2006|04:42am] [ mood | i cant explain my souls empty ] [ music | crickets and birds ] i remeber how to act. silly me i got confused? me doing those things...noooo i never do that, i dont know what is that person doing? i dont know cause i dont really hang out with them...what you saw us together? no we arnt together, no me and psh no no silly goose. i remeber how to act. you cant forget years of how to act in what two weeks? good thing i remember things.

4 boxed   sheep i hva a best friend [13 Oct 2006|09:59am] [ mood | lost ] [ music | then i dont know now phantom of the opera ] i have a best friend we have never kissed i know perfection i have such great decipline i keep my heart shut i know for life if i lose her i die I have a best friend I try to keep her well Some times i am forgoten but i dont mind i know i love her so it is okay She will be there if i need it sometimes... I have a best friend we kissed a few times i loved it so she said the same and to keep quite so i did, i enjoyed the time we spent as one i wonder how she feels. I woneder wat she thinks I have a best friend and i know it is strange but i love her to much i realized what was wrong i knew waht to do i will break my best friend i need to break our hearts i had a best friend it was the time of my life i rememeber us kissing i remeber my love i had a best friend she was beautiful i had a best friend to bad it wasnt the end. im to sorry to explain but i love you my best friend

3 boxed   sheep my best friend [13 Oct 2006|09:53am] [ mood | confused ] [ music | queen ] Ooh you make me live Whatever this world can give to me It's you you're all I see Ooo you make me live now honey Ooo you make me live Ooh you're the best friend that I ever had I've been with you such a long time You're my sunshine and I want you to know That my feelings are true I really love you Oh you're my best friend Ooo you make me live Ooh I've been wandering round But I still come back to you In rain or shine You've stood by me, god I'm happy at home You're my best friend Ooo you make me live Whenever this world is cruel to me I got you to help me forgive Ooo you make me live now honey Ooo you make me live You're the first one When things turn out bad You know I'll never be lonely You're my only one And I love the things I really love the things that you do You're my best friend Ooo you make me live I'm happy at home You're my best friend Oh you're my best friend Ooo you make me live You you're my best friend

sheep i cant wait to say goodnight [10 Oct 2006|08:26pm] [ music | taylor ] Thank you so much for that see you at 930 kiss. It meant so much more than you think. Oh and every other kiss, I mean everything you feel coming from  my lips, if you can feel the butterflies and tingles like me I mean every one.

sheep To my Camellia [07 Oct 2006|03:49pm]   It is a lie to say I didn’t love you, it wasn’t you that was a mistake.  I love you. I love you.  I wish to see you once, just once, once. I know how I feel for you,  there is love. I want to hear your voice. I want to see your eyes to know your hand to clean your tears and hold you close/near to ease your fears with a goodnight kiss   This world is obcene the world is cruel just to mean.i was confused lost confused im confused I am sorry I let you go it was just to mean   I know my tears now are just for you  to be in my arms.  It is for you to be with me.  How my heart beats  I seem so small It’s the way I cheat  Responsibility, blame. I’m sorry I put you  through this  forgive me  forgive me,   if only I could see you once,  once.    This world is obcene the world is cruel just to mean.i was confused lost confused im confused I am sorry I let you go it was just to mean   Tell me you would of loved me tell me that we would get over the fights and you’d take care of me when I was old. tell me you would of loved me. Because,                 I love you I love you I love you ,  how sorry I am to let you go.   Camellia I love you I love you more I can never forget I love you more Everything for you Just for you, I love you   my Camellia.

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